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4.18.2010

Decisions

I have a huge decision to potentially make in the near future.


weather to become a nurse or not.

I know I know, I have been talking about becoming a nurse for like 2 years now. And now that I might be getting an acceptance letter in the mail I should be so excited and ready to take on the challenge. Well... I'm not. Through some recent soul searching I have been thinking that maybe nursing is not for me. I know that I hate needles. I know that I do not cope well with stress. I know that I am a very emotional person and that sometimes my heart takes over. How am I supposed to separate those things when in nursing school? I don't want to be in a constant state of anxiety while in clinical or on the job. I don't want to have to wonder if I was the reason that person didn't recover. I don't want to walk out to my car every night after a shift and have to cry for 20 minutes so that I can decompress and make it home safely. I love the subject matter. I love learning about the human body and I love taking care of people. I am just not sure if that is enough to make it through nursing school in one piece.

I still have some soul searching to do. If I get a rejection letter, I guess my decision is made for me, however my life never works that way.

3 comments:

Christy said...

Aw, I hope you come to a decision that is good for you.

I was working toward nursing school and I changed my major back to psychology (my original major) the semester before it was time to apply to the nursing program. The intense competition and the fact that it would be at least another 2 years just to get my bachelor's is really what made my decision. I'm in my 5th year of college now and will be graduating in August with my psych degree. It would have been another 2 years after this one if I did nursing. I think I just needed the sense of accomplishment of finishing college sooner. I have to say it was a big relief once I wasn't under so much stress to get into nursing school. But you should make the decision knowing it is the right decision for you.

Good luck on your soul searching!

Haley Dawn said...

Thanks Christy. I think I really agree with you. however i have the same amount of time ahead of me either way. I am just thinking about the stress of actually being in nursing school and after. I love school and learning and I think that is why I can't make up my mind.

M.J. said...

I'm definitely one of those people who takes my work home with me...But, I've volunteered at free health clinics and inner-city after school programs and felt good about it. Yeah, the poverty, sickness and unjustice stuck with me, but not so much that I couldn't sleep at night. I just felt good to be doing something to help.