it was bliss!

I am now officially Mrs. Tufts!

It was just a beautiful day. the weather was perfect, the gardens were perfect, my HUSBAND was perfect. I can't even put into words how it made me feel. It was like watching a movie of myself. It still doesn't feel like it happened it was just that amazing!

and now some eyecandy for my lovelies :)

wow

I have been away for a really long time. Life got busy and the wedding planning started kicking into high gear. But now, I think I will be back in full force!

The wedding is 2 days away! Everything has come together beautifully! I am as cool as a cucumber and I have zero to worry about :)

I am just ecstatic to finally be marrying the man of my dreams! 

Its coming!

My wedding is in 3.5 months!!!! This is a very scary thought, just so you know. I have so much to do.. I can't even wrap my head around

I have my first fitting for my dress on Thursday. I will be talking to my mom and making a list of everything that will need to be done from here out. I hope I don't forget anything.

I did It!

I am jumping in! I am going to nursing school! I got my acceptance and let me tell you, I was registered and fees paid first thing this morning. I think I'm the first one to register! I am such a nerd.

At first, when I opened my letter, I was not excited. I was still weary about actually becoming an RN. but I thought, and I cried, and did more thinking and I said- This is what I need to do. I have worked my little butt off to get here and I am going to freaking do it! I can get over the sticking people with needles. I can manage my stress and anxiety with lots of meditation and chocolate. I walk away from this I will never get the opportunity again.

now I need these:

both in pink of course!

Decisions

I have a huge decision to potentially make in the near future.

weather to become a nurse or not.

I know I know, I have been talking about becoming a nurse for like 2 years now. And now that I might be getting an acceptance letter in the mail I should be so excited and ready to take on the challenge. Well... I'm not. Through some recent soul searching I have been thinking that maybe nursing is not for me. I know that I hate needles. I know that I do not cope well with stress. I know that I am a very emotional person and that sometimes my heart takes over. How am I supposed to separate those things when in nursing school? I don't want to be in a constant state of anxiety while in clinical or on the job. I don't want to have to wonder if I was the reason that person didn't recover. I don't want to walk out to my car every night after a shift and have to cry for 20 minutes so that I can decompress and make it home safely. I love the subject matter. I love learning about the human body and I love taking care of people. I am just not sure if that is enough to make it through nursing school in one piece.

I still have some soul searching to do. If I get a rejection letter, I guess my decision is made for me, however my life never works that way.