My Reality

2011-04-19T16:26:00.000-04:00

Im heading over to wordpress. Please keep following me

here

I will continue to read all of your blogs as always :)

2011-01-18T22:11:00.000-05:00

I had a really good work out this morning. The hubbs and I woke up at 530 this morning and were at the gym by 6 am! It was fabulous! I am really enjoying waking up early and getting a work out in. I have been working on the couch to 5k program because one of my major goals is to run at least one 5k this year. I WILL DO IT. I feel almost this compulsion to run. I just want to be running all the time and I have no idea why. It is hard and it hurts but when I am done the feeling is amazing (even in I only ran for 8 out of the 30 minutes). I have the cardio part down, I just really need to work on my strength training. Weights are like a foreign language to me, I understand the concept yet I am to self-conscious and unsure to use them. I have been watching different videos online and building an easy mini weight routine that I can do.

I feel the momentum and it keeps me pushing on in this quest.

fun day filled with music, friends and Cinnamon raisin bread

2011-01-16T19:01:00.000-05:00

Today was a loooong day. I didn't get any exercise in today but that is ok. I worked for 5 hours yesterday so I think that will count for today. Chris had church this morning so I went along. Him, our new friend and I have found this AWESOME place to have breakfast afterwards so that is what we did. It is called Good Friends Cafe. Can I just say- If you are ever in the area, please go! Their food is to die for! They make cinnamon raisin bread home made and corn beef hash also TOTALLY home made! The bread.. its like a food-gasm for your mouth.

After that Hubby had an Italian recital to do with his on and off voice coach. He had a lesson last week for something different and his teacher said hey come do the Italian recital... in a week. I am so proud or Christopher. He is so talented and listening to him sing make me fall in love with him all over again.

I made this for dinner tonight :

not my photography

Little Italy Chicken Pitas

Super yummy and easy to make! I might make the dressing in a large batch and put it on salad it was so good! I think I figured out one of my "issues". I eat because I like the taste of something, not out of hunger. I had half a pita and it was definitely enough for me but I thought to myself... "That was sooo good I want the other half".. I had to stop myself and think. Was I hungry? Not really. I just want to taste it some more. I need to learn to control that part of me. The part that really just enjoys food for no other reason that it tastes good. Why eat it if I am not hungry? Why have one more bite if I don't really need it. Tomorrow will be a bright and early gym day filled with finishing up some work before I go back to school and then off to my job.. that i love (not) oh so much.

see you on the flip side :)

*go confidently in the direction of your dreams* live the life you've imagined*- Thoreau

my friday 5

2011-01-14T14:52:00.001-05:00

What was the most recent thing to go past its expiration date in your pantry? lots of things. Hubby and I are trying to do more cooking and this means more throwing away of old things.
When does your excitement about the new year usually expire? It has already expired :(
What valued possession seems to be on the verge of expiration? my car... I am going to need a new one in the next couple of years ;(
When does your current driver’s license expire? 2015
What subscription, membership, permit, policy, or other dated document are you most likely to allow to expire next without renewal? Probably the magazine my husband gets

reality check

2011-01-14T14:03:00.000-05:00

I had a doctors appointment yesterday and to say the least.. I HATE going to the doctors. Every one that I have had tells me in one way or another that I need to drop some weight. Yes, I know I am not as slender as I should be, trust me, it is painfully obvious every time I look in the mirror. I was finally getting to the point where I could be comfortable with my self and embrace my curves the way I should and then yesterday happened.

My blood pressure was high

It was she scariest feeling I have ever had. Was my weight finally effecting my health? I am a nursing student so I am well versed in the damage that high blood pressure can cause. And believe me, I don't want any of those things. I really think this was the kick in the ass I needed. It is no longer about how I look, or the skinny jeans that I just WISH I fit into. It is about my health and well being. I NEED to drop some pounds now.

Today began my journey (that has been begun and forgotten about many times). My husband and I bot agreed upon a gym schedule that works for us. I know that he and I are more likely to continue if we do this together. I am also using sparkpeople.com for fitness and nutrition tracking. Actually putting in some thought about what I am eating and having to record it really makes me pay attention. I don't really have a major weight loss goal at the moment. Just getting healthier is my main objective.

I can do this!
I will do this!
I am doing it!

2010-09-01T13:10:00.000-04:00

I have always said that getting married would not really change anything except my name. But the truth is, it is a little different. I had this conversation with hubby the other day and he told me that he feels more "grown up'. I think he means to say mature. I definitely feel like I have grown into more of an adult through the process of getting married. I also feel like my love for him has matured. I can't put it into words but its like there is a much deeper connection between us now than there was before. He said to me today "You're smiling again. I haven't seen you smile in a long time." I am just at peace again. It is lovely to know that this big chapter in our lives is done and closed and we can actually move on to the enjoying our marriage part.

On a more awesome note-

I got my name changed! it is now super official!

I am Mrs. Haley Dawn Tufts <3

it was bliss!

2010-08-31T15:11:00.000-04:00

I am now officially Mrs. Tufts!

It was just a beautiful day. the weather was perfect, the gardens were perfect, my HUSBAND was perfect. I can't even put into words how it made me feel. It was like watching a movie of myself. It still doesn't feel like it happened it was just that amazing!

and now some eyecandy for my lovelies :)

wow

2010-08-26T15:42:00.000-04:00

I have been away for a really long time. Life got busy and the wedding planning started kicking into high gear. But now, I think I will be back in full force!

The wedding is 2 days away! Everything has come together beautifully! I am as cool as a cucumber and I have zero to worry about :)

I am just ecstatic to finally be marrying the man of my dreams!

Its coming!

2010-05-11T10:05:00.000-04:00

My wedding is in 3.5 months!!!! This is a very scary thought, just so you know. I have so much to do.. I can't even wrap my head around

I have my first fitting for my dress on Thursday. I will be talking to my mom and making a list of everything that will need to be done from here out. I hope I don't forget anything.

I did It!

2010-04-30T13:31:00.000-04:00

I am jumping in! I am going to nursing school! I got my acceptance and let me tell you, I was registered and fees paid first thing this morning. I think I'm the first one to register! I am such a nerd.

At first, when I opened my letter, I was not excited. I was still weary about actually becoming an RN. but I thought, and I cried, and did more thinking and I said- This is what I need to do. I have worked my little butt off to get here and I am going to freaking do it! I can get over the sticking people with needles. I can manage my stress and anxiety with lots of meditation and chocolate. I walk away from this I will never get the opportunity again.

now I need these:

both in pink of course!

Decisions

2010-04-18T19:39:00.000-04:00

I have a huge decision to potentially make in the near future.

weather to become a nurse or not.

I know I know, I have been talking about becoming a nurse for like 2 years now. And now that I might be getting an acceptance letter in the mail I should be so excited and ready to take on the challenge. Well... I'm not. Through some recent soul searching I have been thinking that maybe nursing is not for me. I know that I hate needles. I know that I do not cope well with stress. I know that I am a very emotional person and that sometimes my heart takes over. How am I supposed to separate those things when in nursing school? I don't want to be in a constant state of anxiety while in clinical or on the job. I don't want to have to wonder if I was the reason that person didn't recover. I don't want to walk out to my car every night after a shift and have to cry for 20 minutes so that I can decompress and make it home safely. I love the subject matter. I love learning about the human body and I love taking care of people. I am just not sure if that is enough to make it through nursing school in one piece.

I still have some soul searching to do. If I get a rejection letter, I guess my decision is made for me, however my life never works that way.

Doggie fun

2010-04-08T10:50:00.000-04:00

Easter was so much fun!
I took the Penny dog out with me all day. First I went to my FMIL's house for brunch. My neice, nephew, FSIL, Auntie Cindy, Uncle Bobby, Alicia, Brianna, and Nick were all there. The kids had a blast with Penny and Penny seemed to have a good time as well. Next Chris, Penny and I went to my aunts house for dinner. My aunt has a jack russell named Abbie. The 2 doggies had so much fun running around outside and hanging out in the sun. Penny doesn't get to run free like that too often so it was definitely a treat for her.

the doggies hanging out :)

EASTER!

2010-04-02T13:02:00.000-04:00

Thanks Jamie!!

Jamie gave me this Virtual Easter basket!

Hershey's is partnering with bloggers to donate $5,000 to the Children's Miracle Network! They are hosting a blog hop and for each blog entry, Hershey's will donate $10 to the Children's Miracle Network.

Hershey’s Better Basket Blog Hop Rules

1. Copy and paste these rules to your blog post.

2. Create a blog post giving a virtual Easter Basket to another blogger — you can give as many Virtual Baskets as you want!

3. Link back to the person who gave you an Easter Basket.
4. Let each person you are giving a Virtual Basket know you have given them a Basket.

5. Leave your link at BetterBasket.info/BlogHop in the comment section. You can also find the official rules of this #betterbasket blog hop and more information about Better Basket with Hershey’s there.
6. Hershey’s is donating $10 per blog participating in the Better Basket Blog Hop to Children’s Miracle Network (up to a total of $5000 by blog posts written by April 4, 2010).

7. Please note that only one blog post per blog url will count towards the donation.

I will send some easter cheer to:

Sara F.
Broedoms Bounty
LiLu
Amy
Meg

The things I am not

2010-04-01T10:49:00.000-04:00

Inspired by Amy

I am not shy. I will willingly tell the world whatever they want to hear. I do not always think before I speak, I oftentimes find myself putting my foot in my mouth. I am not a patient person. I do not like having to wait for results or answers. I totally understand why my generation is often referred to the as the generation that needs instant gratification. I am not good at calling a lot of people back. Please don't leave me voice mails if you want a response a text or e-mail would be much better.

I am not a "Pretty girl". I love my jeans and t-shirts. I am NOT a lover of all things beauty. I don't even know how to put foundation on. I don't spend time pampering myself, because frankly, I just don't have time to. I am not "skinny", I know this. I am trying to love my size and shape every day the way Christopher does. That being said, I am not lacking in the confidence department. I know that I am good at a whole lot of other things and I try not to let my body image get in the way of that.

I am most certainly not an advocate of PETA but I love my animals more than I love my people some times. I am not an alcoholic. I am not a party girl. I am not a hermit. I like to have a good time but I really do love just staying home and knowing that i can sleep in my own bed. I am not domestic, crafty, or really creative. I am afraid that I will be a bad wife because of that. I can't cook and I hate cleaning, I better start working on that hehe. I am not afraid to take risks and just jump and any opportunity that comes my way. They always seem to work out in my favor

Time

2010-03-31T21:57:00.000-04:00

I need more time for me.

I don't get to spend a lot of time and take care of myself and do the things that I want to do for myself. I spend so much time taking care of everyone and everything else, while working and going to school, that I tend to come last a lot of times. I want to really get healthy, I want to cook healthy meals, but how am I or anyone else supposed to do that when they leave the house at 845 am and get home for the day at 10 pm. Hell I am lucky if I can have a dinner at home (cooked or ordered) once a week. I need to do some soul searching when it comes to my career path too. I am so busy that I don't ever get to have a clear head to think about it and what really makes me happy.

today was a prime example. I was so concerned that Christopher had the copies of his Demo CD to give to people today that I totally forgot that I wanted to bring save the dates with me to give to people. I am so concerned with him that the things I need to do are forgotten :(

I just feel so lost in this world today. I need some inspiration on what to post. I have totally been at a loss.
I blame it on my lack of funness in my life :(

Words for thought

2010-03-26T08:36:00.001-04:00

Develop the maturity to stop trying to prove something. Learn to be content with what you are.

— Marjorie Pay Hinckley

Give away announcement!

2010-03-24T22:48:00.000-04:00

Jamie is having a lovely give away!

We all work hard during the week ladies and it is time that we give something back to ourselves!
Enter her de-stressing giveaway and have a nice strong drink and relax!

Under Construction

2010-03-24T11:57:00.000-04:00

I am redoing the colors and layout so please bare w/ me. I think I am going to go with the lighter scheme, but I am not quite done yet.

Tell me what you think!

Something that really bugs me

2010-03-23T23:07:00.000-04:00

I hate when people walk into my store 2 minutes before it is closed and proceed to shop as if no one is trying to go home. Like, I am ALL about customer service. I do everything I can to make sure my customers are happy. But really, its 9:58 and we close at 10.. what is SOOOO important that you need NOW that you cant get at 7am? I want to go home at 10 not 10:05 and so does the rest of the people I work with.

In other news:
1. The Penny has been doing AWESOME with training. even after the first day there was a huge difference in her behavior. I now enjoy walking her because there is not constant pulling. I can't wait to bring her back on Friday and teach her something new :)

2. I am considering a career path change. When I was in middle school I really loved computers. I wanted to go to school for computer science. I am not thinking that maybe I will get a degree in IT w/ a focus on web design/ development. I am going to start teaching myself HTML and maybe putting a test website together to see if it something that I enjoy still. I like design elements and I think I know what looks good and what doesn't. I guess the really thing is; is there money/ jobs in the field? I certainly do not want to work for myself. I am not into running my own business, but I would love to work on a team for a company. Who knows, everything really depends on what happens w/ Chris and if i get into the nursing program or not. Food for thought. If anyone has any info that would be awesome!

my Penny PooPoos

2010-03-19T11:28:00.000-04:00

I am LOVING this beautiful weather! The sun just makes me all happy on the inside :)
I also love it because we can take Penny out to play in the baseball field so that she can actually have space to run run run. I took her out this morning and it was so much fun! I wish I brought my camera so I could have snapped some pictures of her rolling around in the grass. Oh well, next time I will. Watching her run free is rewarding for me. I know it makes her so so happy. There are currently one or two dog parks on Cape and they are pretty far away from us. BUT I just learned that Hot Diggity, a local pet boutique, is working to build the Mashpee Dog Park! This is much needed because there are very very few places for our pups to run free and once summer comes, dogs are not allowed to be anywhere :(

We also start our much needed training sessions tomorrow! We really need someone to teach us how to train her effectivly because up until now, she has been a bit unruly! I can't wait to have a well behaved, listening dog!

these are old, i needs new ones

things

2010-03-17T14:58:00.000-04:00

ok ok... so I may be a blond again! (I am LOVING it by the way!) but this person could not have been serious:

I went to starbucks yesterday with my sweetie for some sinful treats. I was looking and I got excited that they have light frappacinos! I was concerned thought because I really try to avoid artificial sweetners at all costs. So I asked the guy behind the counter, "What makes them light?" I was assuming I would get a "well, it has light cream in it" or "oh we use some type of artificial sweetener" no no... this is the answer I got:

me: "What makes the frappacino light"
boy: "Well its our light mix and it has 1/3 less calories"

UM DUH! I CAN read that on the sign. I was just like... really? you don't know WHY its light?

eventually I got the answer and was told that it is artificial... so I ordered a regular
I tried I guess
That must be how people feel when they ask me where the ice cream is and i politely tell them "The aisle with the freezers"

I have been inspired

2010-03-11T11:47:00.001-05:00

There are a few things that have inspired me to actually feel like the beautiful sexy woman the my loving FH tells me I am.. Part of it is the weather. I love the sunshine and the warm air. It brings one a sense of renewal and rebirth in my life. It motivates me to really start taking care of myself and taking time for myself. In the winter and fall I usually just throw my hair in a pony tail and run out the door. Lately I have really been enjoying actually trying to put myself together so to speak.

my other inspiration is this beautiful woman

image from here

Her name is Crystal Renn and she is a beautiful, curvy size 12. She models for high end designers like D&G and Jean Paul Gaultier. Seeing her being so mainstream and having beautiful curves, makes me feel beautiful too. It is so depressing only seeing stick thin waifs of women on the covers or magazines or walking down the runway. I want to know that my size 12 figure can be thought of like that too.

Ok well that's it for me. I just wanted to tell the work how happy I feel lately :)

Statistics :(

2010-03-01T12:51:00.000-05:00

I am not a fan of math, AT ALL!

For whatever reason, I got it into my crazy head this semester that I would take statistics. I figured that I would need to take it for a bachelors so I might as well get it over with now. I wish I hadn't. The test we just took was a nightmare! The multiple choice did not reflect much of anything that we had done in class. I am think about auditing this class because I don't want the grade to reflect on my GPA. I don't actually need the class, I was just trying to fill my time with something that I thought would be useful.

you live and learn I suppose.

ramblings about my job

2010-02-26T12:05:00.003-05:00

As most of you may know (or maybe not) I tutor anatomy and physiology mt the college I attend. I really love what I do. I get to help students grasp concepts and information in a subject that I love yet, is quite a challenge.

This semester I have met a new challenge when it comes to tutoring. I have been seeing a lady almost 4 hours a week for tutoring. Her main set back- she is Russian. The language barrier is HUGE!. She speaks English quite well but with a heavy accent. The issue is not her intelligence, because believe me, she is really quite smart. The issue is that she cannot just pick up the book and read the words and understand that is being said. Hell, for many of the students that don't have a language issues, that is hard to do!It has made me realize how difficult our language is. It has really taught me to think about what I am saying and how I am saying it. I may need to define a word 3 or 4 different ways before she understands its meaning. She is a riot and has a great sense of humor. we kinds of joke about everything as we are going along w/ the session. She has also taught me to have a lot of patience and how to work with someone that English is a second language. Just because they can speak it does not mean they truly have an understanding.

New blog to read :)

2010-02-24T15:00:00.003-05:00

Amy at Travel Nurse Aim contacted me and asked if I would link her blog. I LOVE reading nursing blogs so of course I said yes! I started poking around and became really fascinated with what she does. She is a traveling nurse (as you can tell by her blog title). this means she works for an agency that sends her all over the place to work at different hospitals. She essentially fills open spots that need to be filled stat.She talks about all the ins and our of travel nurisng like the BIG questions that need to be asked. She is very informative and what she deals with day to day seems to be quite interesting! She just switched to wordpress so if you want more you can find her here as well!

Enjoy! I know I will!

big changes... possibly

2010-02-22T11:40:00.004-05:00

A lot has been going on lately, and its kinda crazy.

Chris is working on getting a demo tape together that he can send to Robins Air Force base in Georgia. Yes, a demo tape to the military. There is an opening in the regional band for a tenor/ baritone and they want a tape by March 31. It is actually really exciting. He would be singing for the military and that would be an awesome job. The money is good and the job security is excellent. If they like the tape they will have him come down to GA for a real audition. If they like him there, hes in!
what does this all mean?

he will be gone for at most 100 days out of the year, and that is not all at once, it is spread out over the whole year and every 18-20 months we will be gone for up to 60 days over seas. BUT that is only if his unit is called, so he may not necessarily be called.

We will have to move. Exciting and scary at the same time. He will have 8 days after BMT to find a house, whether that is a rental or we buy. I would love to buy because the houses are CHEAP (at least compared to what I am used to)! I just don't know how we will find a place so fast. I guess I would have to be looking around while he is away or we would have to buy before he goes.

I will be living in Georgia... 200 miles from the ocean.... does not make me happy! but it will be warm all the time!

this is all so overwhelming... I really hope this all works out though! I think it will be a lot of fun!

Officiant

2010-02-19T11:48:00.000-05:00

We met with our officiant yesterday! She was lovely and everything I could have ever asked for. She is easy to get in touch with, she is calm, cool and really loves what she is doing! We showed up are her house and she answered the door in her Ed Hardy t-shirt and sweat pants, at the moment I knew she was the one! We picked out our vows and I may send her some stuff to make changed but i really love what we picked. It short, simple and a little different that the standard. One more thing to check off the list!

I have an Idea

2010-02-05T13:34:00.002-05:00

While I brows through my long list of blogs written by some really amazing women, I notice that quite a few of us are working towards becoming healthier. I Though maybe we should band together as some kind of support network so that we can continue to encourage and help each other along the way.

let me know if this some something interesting.

I feel good

2010-02-04T11:03:00.002-05:00

I have been really down lately. I just haven't been feeling "sexy". FH tells me all the time how beautiful and sexy I am but I just don't believe him. So i made a promise to myself the other day. I promised myself that I would wake up at 630 Tuesday, Thursday and Friday to go to the gym. Today was day 1 of keeping my promise and I feel sooo good. It was really tough waking up in the morning (I really love my sleep). But it was well worth it. I really just want to look as sexy and I am supposed to feel (and I do feel it some times). I also really want to look good for my wedding (and wedding night).

I sometimes watch exercise video infomercials and I am intrigued by them. Maybe when I have some extra cash I will pick one up and see how it works.

Day one feels great and hopefully I can continue this. for 15 pounds :)

2010-01-15T11:09:00.002-05:00

We got a puppy a few weeks ago. We love her so so much and she is really quite good. The problem is... she hates our cat. Every time she sees the cat she want to eat him. It is really not fair to him at all. I mean his is our first baby and he does get preference. We probably could deal with a crazy hyper puppy, but I dont know that we can handle a puppy that wants to attack our beloved cat. We are considering selling her. It makes me really sad bit I am really not sure is this is going to work for us. She really is sweet and very smart.

*sigh*

I just don't know what to do

The dress Debauchle

2010-01-10T11:31:00.004-05:00

My dress.. has been something that was quite stressful up until now.

After Chris and I got engaged I went and did a little dress shopping. I just wanted to see what I liked and didn't like. Well my mom, sister and I headed over to Davids Bridal and my awesome consultant had me try on like 20 dresses. NO JOKE. By the end of the day I found the dress that I THOUGHT I loved. I thought i looke beautiful in it and I was so excited. We bought the dress. That was 1.5 years ago. Since then I would try my dress on every time I went to my aunts house and every time i saw myself in it. i love my dress but not the way I looked in it. So finally over Christmas, my aunt said, let me call and see if they can get you one in a bigger size because that will alleviate a lot of the issues I had with the way it was fitting. Surprisingly they said to bring it on it so they could take a look at it and they would order me a size up no problem.

I was a blonde then too hehe

So I walk into the store and I start trying on my old dress so that my consultant can see it on me and I see a dress hanging on a mannequin that I just thought was super cute. I asked to try it on and she said sure. I put it on and fell in love. it is so much more flattering and It totally fits my personality and the feel of the wedding so much better! It is just really crazy that I could try on 20 dresses and think that i found then one and then see a single dress hanging up and put it on and leave with it as my wedding dress. It was never my intention to but a new dress. But when I put it on all I could think of was wow!

Now I am really excited to be getting married and I am so excited to actually start planning. i don't have to worry about losing those last 100000000 pounds to fit into my dress and I can just relax and enjoy myself!

2010-01-10T11:20:00.003-05:00

Christopher and I really cleaned the house yesterday. It felt really good to have clean floors and see that most of the stuff in the house was where it belonged. For me, when I actually do it, cleaning feels like a new beginning. It makes me feel like I can start the day fresh and new. Yesterday was an awesome day actually. We got all of our bills paid, purchased some necessary items from the grocery store and *drum roll please*.. Ordered our Save the Dates! This is the first little thing that we have purchased for the wedding. All deposited have been paid, dress has been purchased (and since exchanged for a new one... more on that later), money has been saved and now it is time to spend it! Yesterday really was a fresh start it felt like. I have also since realized that I will be Mrs. T in 7.5 months! I cant wait!

some of the colors are a little different. What I loved about them is that they are magnets! I akways hate giving people things that I know will end up in the trash. With these I am sure they will hang on everyone's fridge forever! Its like a little keepsake :)

one more goal

2010-01-04T09:19:00.001-05:00

get organized! The house is a mess and Chris leaves things everywhere! I really need to start cleaning and organizing wayyy more

Happy new year!

2010-01-01T11:23:00.002-05:00

Welcome to 2010 everyone! This is going to be a pretty crazy year. I am planning a wedding, praying that I get into nursing school, and many more things that I am sure will come up. One of the scariest things I realized was that 2009 just FLEW by. I keep thinking "What the hell did I do with myself this year"... apparently not to much hehe.

Resolutions:
1. Continue going to the gym and getting healthy
2. Save a little more money
3. enjoy every moment of every day

Snowed in!

2009-12-20T10:42:00.002-05:00

We got a lot of snow here on the Cape. Probably 8-10 inches. As a result, It was impossible for me to get into work this morning and church Mass was Canceled at the church Chris sings at on Sundays. We both get to stay home and do nothing today!! We did wrap some gifts though, and here are some pictures to prove it:

Christopher wrapping Collin's Present

Me Wrapping Savanah's Present

I guess I can't be beautiful ALL the time

Even the Cat joined in (no surprise)

DONE!

2009-12-19T08:01:00.002-05:00

School is done! No more papers for a very very VERY long time!

Retrospectively, I am really glad I took the accelerated english (1/2 101, 1/2 102 in one semester). Even though It was a TON of work on really short deadlines, I think I gained a lot out of the class. The teacher was really quite interesting and I learned a writing process that will probably help me a lot in papers to come. It also means that I never have to take another English class as long as I live hehe.

In other news, We are supposed to get a TON of snow today. Cape Cod never gets snow, but it looks like its coming! I hope I don't get snowed in at work! That would be miserable. Tomorrow I will baking probably close to 9 dozen cookies :). Chris and I decided that we were giving cookies to everyone for Christmas because we didn't really have the money to purchase everyone gifts. I like cookies better anyways :)

ok off to work for the day :(

2009-12-10T12:51:00.002-05:00

There is a lot going on right now in the world of Haley. I am working on my LAST paper of the semester. This could not come fast enough! This will be paper # 8. I hope I never have to write another paper again. And frankly, These papers were a waste of time and energy. Who cares if "Apocalypse Now" is a realistic portrayal of war? It was semi-entertaining and thats about it.

Today I will be giving the deposit check to the restaurant for our wedding reception! It is so exciting to finally be moving forward with the planning. This has been a long time coming.

2009-12-04T12:09:00.002-05:00

Amy from The Relentless Bride Is taking the challenge. I thought that since I am getting married in 9 months *Giggles like a school girl* I would do the same. i need to work on my fitness and push ups will really help w/ my problem areas. i thought this would be fun and easy so here goes!

They also have a sit up challenge which i might try to tackle as well. one thing at a time though right?

Overwhelmed

2009-11-18T10:51:00.003-05:00

is anyone else feeling a little overwhelmed with the holiday season fast approaching? I have no idea what to do for Christmas present. Christopher still will not tell me what he wants. If I don't get an answer he isn't getting anything. I just feel like there is so much I have to get, but alas no money to get any of it with. *sigh*.... I need a vacation

Ceremony!

2009-11-13T09:46:00.001-05:00

We got the permit and we are sending it in w/ the check today!

we are one step closed to wedded bliss! :)

I also made alit fo things to day for the wedding.. if I forgot anything let me know and I will add it!

2009-11-10T19:33:00.002-05:00

I met the sweetest old man today. He is originally from New Orleans and has the most amazing accent! He and I started talking, as I do with most of my customers and he started telling me a little about himself. He was an optomologist in New Orleans before the hurricane. He had a beautiful house and was doing pretty ok for himself to say the least. Then the crap hit the fan and by crap I mean hurricane Katrina. His house was demolished and he lost his medical building. he lost everything. And you know what the insurance company gave him and his family for the damages? $8,000 dollars to fix the roof. That would have been great if there was still a house to put a roof onto. $8,000... that doesn't buy a new house. That doesn't help restart his practice. My heart just hurt for him. I wanted to cry for and with him. But through it all he says, "I still have my health". It is so refreshing to see someone that has been through the worst imaginable yet they still have a positive outlook on what has happened. I wished I had gotten his address and his name so that I could send him a letter or a Christmas card. He will be someone that I will always remember meeting and talking to.

My Baby loves me :)

2009-11-08T12:49:00.004-05:00

How do I know?
He brings me these :)

The notes say:
For my love just because
For my love because shes beautiful
For my love because shes HOT!

Moving forward

2009-11-08T11:49:00.002-05:00

Life has been really good lately. In a few days we will have been in our little house for a month and this first month has been awesome. I was afraid money was going to be tight but in reality we are doing really well. We paid rent early, we are not going hungry and we have a few pennies to spare so that we can have a good time :).

In other news, Wedding plans are beginning to finally take shape. We made some major decisions about what, when and where we will be getting married and I am really excited! We will be booking the Roger Williams botanical Gardens for out Ceremony on August 28, 2010! We are still looking for a place to do dinner for the 30 family members we are inviting. We have some place we are looking at but nothing definite yet. i am kind of sad that we cannot invite everyone we want to, however the budget just will not allow for it. so to remedy this, we are hoping to have a fun casual bbq style party either some time before (like an engagement type party) or some time after the wedding. this also has not been fully decided yet but hopefully that will happen within the next few months.

While we are on the subject of marriage, I have been working really had to find my identity as a fiance and future wife. I am trying to figure out what it is that I am supposed to be doing differently now that I run a household and wil soon be Mrs. T. One of the things that has most bothred me is that I don't cook much. I dont LOVE cooking, eventhough I LOVE eating hehe. I also don't have a ton of time to cook. I kind of felt like a failure because of this. However, for whatever reason, I have come to realize that it ok. Chris really like to cook and he is around to do it. the way we do things works for us and I am sure that these jobs will change as our relationship changes and grows...

I can't wait to see what life holds for us :)

Talking to my mother

2009-11-01T18:23:00.002-05:00

It is really funny to talk to my mom about the wedding. I kind of throw little things in here or there about it like "Oh I think we are going to try and get our deposit back".. and I don't get much of a response. I don't really know what to think about that. I mean, we have pretty much made up our minds. A court house wedding w/ just immediate family and then we will take them out to dinner that night. Then about a month later we throw a really good bbq for all of our friends and family as a really relaxed celebration. I guess she just doesn't want to put her input in, which is ok in a way because she is realizing it is MY wedding and not hers. It is kind of disconcerting though at the same time. I like her opinion. I like getting a little validation from her, but I suppose it doesn't matter. I guess I need to become more comfortable making my own decisions.

Roles reversed

2009-11-01T14:33:00.001-05:00

I am cooking for my parents tonight! this will be the first time I have ever cooked them dinner! It is actually pretty exciting. Chris and I are making mashed potatoes, steak tips , dinner rolls and a salad. I hope it turns out yummy! I will let everyone know!

Doing Laundry

2009-10-19T09:09:00.002-04:00

We did our laundry for the first time at the Laundromat up the street. It was a kind of interesting expeience. We walked in and the woman running the place had us weight our laundry. We had a total of 46 pounds of laundry... thats a lot of dirty clothes. The she directed us to the monster of all washing machines. I mean it was HUGE! It held 50 pounds of laundry!. So we washed everything all together and that took about 40 minutes. Then we dried everything, but we had to separate everything into 3 different dryers so it dried faster. It was pretty painless except for the fact the whole ordeal cost about $10. It was nice because we just got everything done all at once instead of having to do a bunch of different loads of laundry. What was funny was that it was us and 3 or 4 older and I am assuming single, men. It was like the laundromat was their Sunday night hang out. I am hoping that maybe we can go more than a week w/o doing laundry because I don't really want to spend $10 a week doing laundry.

wow...

2009-10-13T08:03:00.002-04:00

It is so amazing to be living in my own place. This is so exciting! Chris ans I have been together for close to 3 years and we are so exciting to finally have our own place together! I feel almost like Martha Stewart in the sense that I really like the iea of running my own household and making my own rules and cleaning and cooking and decorating. Things that until recently I had no desire to do any of. I also has made me super aware of everything we do. I make sure all lights are off. If im not in the room, they are off. We shut our computers off at night. We are making sure we pack a lunch because we can't be buying food all the time. I have really begun to appreciate all of the things I have. We have more money than we did before, but we certainly do not have a lot of money. Usually I would be freaking out about not having any money... actually I was freaking out. However, I have realized that we will be ok. We just have to be smarter about what we do and be more careful about what we spend on. I am actually totally ok with just making it. We have to start somewhere don't we?

Here's to jumping into the being pool of "real life" feet first!

My new House!!!

2009-10-12T16:03:00.003-04:00

computer room (still not unpacked)

Computer room

as you can see we are not totally unpacked yet

from the other side of my bed

Bedroom (my closet is messy)

Kitchen (its sooo tiney)

Scotch cat!

Kitchen again

Living room

I love my little house! It is so perfect for the 2 of us and our cat!

January is coming

2009-10-08T13:11:00.002-04:00

When January gets here I will officially have 18 months till my scheduled wedding. I say scheduled for a couple of reason. First of all, we actually booked a place and have an official date. so technically it is scheduled. Secondly, however, I am having a lot of trouble deciding whether or not we can really afford to have a "real" wedding. we have $2000 saved up in the bank currently and we wanted to ask our family for about $2000 a piece. The problem is that right now my dad and Chris' dad are both out of work. How can we rightly ask them to help us when they are just barely floating right now? Will I be happy just having my closest family and friends come to the courthouse to see us get married and then have a house party of some kind? I think so because for me it is not about all the wedding frills and it being perfect and "what every bride needs". For me it is about Chris and I confirming our love and commitment to each other and out family. the problem is... what about my mom. What is she gonna think, what does she want to do? I am sure we will be able to get our deposit back (and if not oh well). I will still wear my dress because I will still be a bride.

I am just so torn up about this, I need to talk to my momma.

my new obsession

2009-10-03T22:12:00.003-04:00

Everlon Diamond knot pendant

A Diamond is Forever

Isn't it gorgeous!! I want this for my one year wedding anniversary. ther rings are really nice too!!

we're moving on up!

2009-09-29T10:31:00.003-04:00

We got the official word yesterday... WE ARE MOVING!! We mailed out our first check today! This is so exciting! The best part is- We can have our cat back! I miss my furry baby so so much! now the fun begins... hehe. I have to but the paint tomorrow and hopefully do a little cleaning before I have to be in Hyannis. We need to find time to paint this week and this weekend because we are moving in Columbus day weekend.

to do list:
Buy paint
call Comcast
clean
paint
find a kitchen table and chairs
buy bathroom stuff (shower curtain, shower head.. etc.)
get a seat cover for the loveseat
pack
move our stuff in
get our cat!

so much to do and only 2 weeks to do it in :(

tutoring

2009-09-24T13:38:00.002-04:00

So, I never though I would enjoy teaching anyone anything but tutoring is actually really fun! I have had some students that come really prepared and koe exactly what to ask me. That makes what I am doing so much easier. I can directly answer them and give a specific answer. I have also had some students that are slightly clueless. With some of them that's ok because I can do an over view of what they have learned and kind of review with them their notes. Some of them its bad. They are getting a head of themselves and did seem to do any reading or any work on their own. I am enjoying myself though. I love seeing that light bulb go off in their head! Its also an awesome review for me. I like being able to keep my knowlege sharp.

plus.. If I dont have any appointments, I can get some of my own work done, like I did today!

Why music should be in schools

2009-09-14T22:05:00.003-04:00

So i have to write an essay for my english class and our first essay is about taking a stance on something and defending it. We did a little prewriting in class and this is what I wrote:

why this is important to me:

This topic is very important to me. I have played an instrument since the 4th grade and it is something that continues to bring me great joy. Because of music I have made many lasting friends, learned many valuable lessons and really know what it feels like to succeed and to fail. It is my creative outlet and one of the things that made me really enjoy going to school every day. Music is important in the schools because it give students all the opportunities that I mentioned as well as helping them succeed academically. Music has taught me discipline, time management and commitment. Many studies also show that music has a positive effect on test scores in reading and math and it engages both sides of the brain which helps with critical thinking and problem solving. Music is also a physical activity. It teaches breath support, and more importantly it can help develop fine motor skills. This is an important topic to discuss because many people do not truly see the benefits that music can offer their children and that these students would truly be missing out on a valuable experience without it.

I was pretty impressed with it hehe. This is such an important subject to me.. as you can tell. There is a lot of passion and emotion that I put into it. In other news CHRIS GOT THE JOB!
He is now the full time sub at the middle school.. and making great money :)! Now lets just hope they want to rehire him next year.. but that's getting ahead of ourselves now. maybe this good karma will come my way and I will be accepted into nursing school!

some random things

2009-09-06T15:05:00.002-04:00

I know I haven't posted in a while so I have some random little tidbits to share :)

Today was the "sexy sale" at Victoria's Secret! I bought 3 Bras for what I would normally pay for one there! Being a little larger chested *coughDDcough* I really try and invest in good bras and VS are really the only ones that fit me well. I was totally excited because I REALLY needed some new bras.

Christopher's BlackBerry broke again! we took it to the store and they took one look at it and replaced it. I have no idea why he is having such a hard time with his phone but thank goodness he bought the insurance on it!

Chris has been given the teaching job as a 10 day sub for now. There is another applicant and I think that they have to interview that person first before they make any real decisions. I really cannot see them giving it to the other person. They didn't need to give Chris the sub position, they could have given it to anyone and at this point I cannot see them hiring the other person.. however you never know, so please keep your fingers crossed!

I start school again on Wednesday! I am kinda excited about that! I am just taking 2 classes.. well its 2 classes in one really so I will have a nice and easy semester.

well that is it for now!

opportunity

2009-08-28T15:16:00.002-04:00

Life works in mysterious ways. Just as Chris is all set up for classes in the fall and he has finally made up his mind about what he is going to do, he get an e-mail. The e-mail is from the department head of music at one of the local school districts who knows Chris.I guess she was the assistant band director for his HS bad. The e-mail is telling him about an opening for 5-8 general music and chorus that JUST became available in her district. She tells him he should jump on it. So he does. He e-mails her back saying that he will put in an applicatio0n but unfortunately he does not currently have his certification but will get it asap if he is given the job. She them e-mails him back saying that she just talked to the principal and the other music teacher and they have decided to make the position a full time sub position so not having his cert. is not a problem and that it opens up the job to more people. She is pretty much THROWING this job at him. We dropped his resume off today so we will just have to wait and see what happens. He will at least get an interview out of this if nothing else, and in my book that's OK. What would be AWESOME is if he received a job from this! it would take a HUGE strain off of things I think.

this might be what we needed.. but if not would could always try and win the $325 million dollar mega millions lottery tonight :)

My legs hurt

2009-08-19T08:56:00.003-04:00

Yesterday for the most part was a good day. Chris and I went to my parents house in the morning and then we went to the beach with my family and my sisters boyfriend. It was a really nice day and it was the first time I actually went to the beach this summer.. I know, sad. I put sunscreen all over myself except my legs.. usually my legd don't burn so I though... "I want my legs to look tan instead of this pasty white so i just won't put sunscreen on". Bad idea. I guess since my legs ARE so pasty white I just burned lol. It hurts. Then we all ment back to my house and waited for my aunt and cousin to arrive because we were celebrating my cousin's 16th birthday! It was nice because I don't really see them that often. Then the anxiety comes. Everyone starts talking about buying a house and paying for the wedding and going to school.. everything that has to do with money and everything that I just can't afford. I just can't handle it. I am barley surviving, not to mention we are a couple are just above water. I was pretty much upset for the rest of the night and went straight to be when we got home... I feel like I have no control over some parts of my life, and I feel lost. I feel like I don't know how to do this "grown up" thing and it scares the crap out of me...

hopefully today is a better day

I love my days off

2009-08-10T14:30:00.002-04:00

I really do! I love not having any deadlines to meet, I love not having to be anywhere, and I REALLY love not having customers in my face. What I don't love is that I never have anything to do. No errands, no friends that are not working, nothing.. I would almost RATHER be at work. Heck I would rather have homework to do than nothing at all.

for some exciting news- Chris and I bought our tickets to Florida in November!. We are going to Disney for the Food and Wine Festival!!! I still need to get my park hopper pass (which im hopping my mom will get me for my Christmas gift!) and we are ready to go!

New Hair Cut

2009-08-05T15:35:00.004-04:00

ok smile

my super star face!

I love getting my hair cut! It is not very often that I pamper myself because, well... pampering myself costs money. So today I decided to get my hair cut at this salon near my house called the Mane Event. They were by far the cheapest salon around, most places its $50+ but here it was $32 for a cut at most. I am always afraid to have someone I am not used to cut my hair because I have been going to the same lady for YEARS now. It is just not practical for me to drive to RI to get my hair cut though, so i needed to find something close by. My hair dresser did AWESOME! I love the cut so much and she was so sweet. Not to mention, she is about my age so she knows how to be fashionable hehe. I will definitely be going back to see her and maybe next time I will get my hair colored since I miss being blond lol. It is amazing how much better you feel after getting a hair cut. It just revitalizes your appearance and makes you feel shiney and new again!

Stressors

2009-08-03T18:58:00.002-04:00

So Christopher wants to go back to school. He has a degree in Music Ed, which in this current situation is not doing him any good. He wants to go back and get an associates in IT. I want him to be able to have a degree in something and be successful. Music ed is not a good field to be in right now. All the vacancies from teachers retiring are not actually being filled. What most districts out here are doing is just taking a teacher they already have and placing them into that empty spot as well as have them do what they were doing before. I don't know if its our location or if it is simply the economic climate right now but he is having no luck. What frustrates me about this is that we were going to be trying to move out next spring. If we are BOTH in school (even if he is part time) where are we going to come up with the money to move out? How is rent going to get paid? On top of all of this, I now have to start paying for my health insurance because my dad has been laid off. I am covered until September but this now means that about 60 dollars a week are coming out of my paycheck to pay for my health insurance. no to mention I pay 50 dollars a week in rent (cheap I know but I don't make much to begin with). There is no way for me to work 2 jobs during the school year.

I think from now on I am only going to keep $150 in my checking account and all extra for the week is going straight into my savings account (minus $50 for rent and whatever bill needs to be paid at the time). I need to do something to start putting a lot of money away. I need to figure out how much i can actually save to see what I can pay in rent every month.

*sigh* I need a drink

feels like flying!

2009-08-03T18:32:00.002-04:00

I rode my bike today! for the first time in years actually hehe. I had my parents bring it to me when they came to visit. I have had this bike for ages. Its the 2nd bike I have ever owned I think I got it when I was 10 (?). It used to have a kick stand but that has since died or broken, but everything else still works! I love the feeling of the wind hitting my face while I ride my bike. It is actually really quite relaxing and makes me feel like a little kid again. I am so glad I remembered to ask my parents to bring it to me!! There are some really nice bike paths out here on Cape Cod and my goal is that every Sunday Chris and I go bike riding for the afternoon. Of course that is just my plan, its not like I cant have any control over the wether and with my luck it will rain every Sunday.

something fun to do!

2009-07-24T10:27:00.002-04:00

So Sara over at Little Rhody Girl has tagged me to do a MeMe. I have to tell 7 truths about myself and tag some of my lovely blog buddies!

1. I'm going to school to be a nurse but sometimes really want to quit school and just work. I really enjoy my customer service job eventhough I know I will never make enough money.

2. I just turned 21 and I don't think I really know how to be grown up. I keep saying I want to be moved out on our own but that thought still scares me.

3. I hate doing the dishes. I always leave them for Chris to do hehe.

4. I don't want to plan my wedding. It is way to overwhelming for me and I would rather just run away and do it in Vegas.

5. As much as I complain about Cape Cod, I think its starting to grow on me.

6. I am a t-shirt and jeans girl. I always want to dress a little nicer but you know what I would always rather be in something comfy and soft instead.

7. I enjoy playing WoW

I tag:
Rebekah at Rebekah's Bits & Pieces
LiLu at Live it, Love it
Sunshinemeg at Float On
Boredom's Bounty
Christy at a Little Piece of Heaven

Hard hats required

2009-07-23T13:34:00.003-04:00

So the outside of my house is a construction zone. They are digging up my roas and putting in drains. I also think they might be widening the road (but that might just be the road next to mine). The working men seem to be having a good time but golly is it a mess over here. and it happens to be right at the end of my drive way!

not to mention that the roads in this neighborhood are a mess! TONS of pot holes and at one point right after the winter the road was basically crumbling to pieces. Lets hope this fixes the problems :)

In other news:

we have this customer that comes into the store. they will come in and buy things with coupons which pretty much means that ther are getting some stuff for free. they will then come in later with the item that the "purchased" with the coupons and returns it. never has a receipt and their excuse is always "I bought the wrong one". When someone returns something withough a receipt I have to give them store credit. Not a huge deal I suppose because they HAVE to use the store credit at our store , however they are being given store credit for something they didn't PAY for. Nest time they come in and there is a manager there I am to call them down so that they can deal with this scam artist. Yes we have caught on!!!!

Finally something to talk about hehe

2009-07-20T11:37:00.003-04:00

I turned 21 on Saturday!!

It was such a good night! My best friend Kayla and some of my very close friends from URI came up to celebrate with me. It was pretty liberating to be carded and order drinks at a restaurant. And boy were they good! In light of my recently becoming legal I though I would do some drink reviews lol.

Bad: Del's lemonade with vodka
The recipe calls for 2 cups ice and 1 cup water so they talked me into putting 1 cup vodka instead of the water. BAD BAD idea. it tasted like vodka and I don't like vodka. next time ill do 1/4 cup vodka and 3/4 cup water I think that will be better.

Good: Cozumel Coolaid
Its orange soda and some kind of liquor w/ some other stuff in there and it was really quite good.

Really good: Screaming Banana Banshee
It was like a banana daiquiri it was delicious! I LOVE banana and it tasted almost like banana cream pie. I will certainly get another one of those when I go out lol

Awesome new find: Sweet Tea Vodka
I guess this is huge down south but its kinda new up here to us northerners. We mixed it with some iced tea and it was AWESOME! If anyone has any other ideas on what to do with this awesome liquor let me know bc i really like it.

My favorite everyday beer: Sam summer
I mean what is not to like about it?? it has a really nice not offensive flavor and throw a lemon in it and that bite is GONE. I love to have one on a hot day, or any day for that matter hehe.

Hopefully life will begin to get more interesting so i can actually have things to tell all of you but lately it has just been work, work and more work.

I am trying to get some plane tickets to go to Florida in November. last time i looked south west was kinda expensive :( hopefully the price will go down! Tomorrow Chris and I will be going to the Barnsatble County Fair. Ill be sure to take pictures bc that should be fun!

Talk to everyone soon please leave me some love so that I know you haven't all left me!!

The meeting of the parents

2009-07-01T22:19:00.004-04:00

Again, sorry I haven't posted much lately, I just haven't had much to say.

So mine and my Fiance's parents FINALLY met. We have been together for 2.5 years and until last Sunday, they have not met. I was quite nervous about it. I was afraid that they wouldn't get along. Both my parents are pretty liberal and Chris' parents.. are well... not. I told everyone prior to this that politics are OFF LIMITS hehe. needless to say, they all behaved. It went fantastically . We all went to the zoo that morning because I wanted to go to the zoo and Chris' mom wanted to bring the kids so we decided that that was the perfect time to get everyone together. I think the kids had an awesome time. My niece is only like 16 months so she only knows a few words and she called all the animals doggies. Atelast we know she got the concept.

I did't take a lot of pictures but my nephew took a couple (yes hes 5 and can take good pictures). Chris took some on his phone so im just waiting for him to upload them. Once he does I will steal them hehe.The Giraffs. Collin took this picture

My niece and my FIL. Collin also took this picture

My niece walkinbg a little bit

The elephants.

In other news- Aparently my ex-BF IM'd my Friend today. I have no idea why. I haven't talked to him in months and my friends hate him. I hate him. He played terrible mind games and really messed me up emotionally. For a long time he was calling me all the time, I never answered bc, well... I didnt want to talk to him. I am just totally confused on why he is trying to contact my friends.. Maybe he is trying to get in touch with me? *Sigh* I just want him out of my life!. This may be sad and mean but if I was told that he had died.. I wouldn't go to the funeral or really care frankly, he hurt me that much.

I live in the smallest state...

2009-06-26T15:08:00.002-04:00

With the longest name and I WILL vote against changing the name!

so busy!

2009-06-25T13:16:00.002-04:00

I have been crazy busy this past week. I'm sorry that I haven't posted in a while or left any comments. I just haven't stopped. My sister graduated on Monday. It was actually really kind of cool. She went to The met and for their graduation they say what each student is planning on doing and what school they are going to next year as they come up for their diploma. One of the requirements for graduation is an acceptance to a 4 or 2 year school. Some of these kids are really quite accomplished, and these are mostly inner city providence kids so that is saying a lot. two kids in the graduating class won the Gates Millennium Scholarship, which is more than any other school in RI.

Last night I went to the BBC with my friend for some pizza and trivia. It was FANTASTIC. I had so much fun!

Today Chris and I went to look at an apartment. It SEEMED promising. 1000 a month every thing included, lofted bedroom.. You know it sounded great. We got there and one look was all it took. the outside was clearly in need of repair, which is not a big deal but its nice when the place looks good. We got inside and looked around and it was TINY. totally NOT worth the 1000 a month. PLUS there was another apartment attached to the house (aka the other half of the house). It was just not good at all. On top of that we asked about our cat and he said "well I would like another deposit for the cat". I asked how much he would like and he replied with "$500". So that means we would pay first, lasts, $500 security AND $500 for the cat. I don't think so!

Next week is our busiest week at work so I'm working long shifts and lost of them. Hopefully the rest of the summer will stay busy. Hopefully i will be back and posting more again now that things have somewhat calmed down.

Off to RI for a concert!

Honest scrap award!

2009-06-21T20:45:00.003-04:00

Boredom's Bounty tagged me with the Honest Scrap award. Thanks!

The rules:

1) tell your readers 10 things about you that are true, that they might not know; and 2) tag 10 other bloggers to do the same

I have a little sister that graduates from high school tomorrow and that scares the crap out of me because that means she is 18 now and not really that little anymore
I have 2 best friends that I have known since we were all 5. We are now 21. That's 16 years!
I love going to school but at the same time I don't want to go anymore. I feel like I can't really start my life until I'm all done.
I now have 2 TATTOOS. I have also had my eyebrow pierced, my ears at also pierced, however I HATE needles! (and I want to be a nurse?!)
I drive a red 2003 Chevy Malibu and I love her!
I like to know that people can open up to me. I really enjoy helping people and making sure they are taken care of.
I was born and raised in New England but I hate the snow. It makes life very difficult and I don't like the cold.
I'll eat pretty much anything covered in chocolate
I am an alumni of a music service sorority TBS. I have boys that are my sisters.
I have never given blood.

I tag everyone that wants to play!

NEW INK!

2009-06-20T19:58:00.004-04:00

I love it! It came out awesome. He was quick and it was relatively inexpensive. When I got there he showed me this sketch that he did. He took my concept and ran in the whole wrong direction with what i was looking for. I pulled out the stuff I gave him and showed him the one I really LOVED. He redrew something and I LOVED what he drew. Even better than what I gave him as inspiration. I hurt like a BIT*H. Like 100000 times more than my first one.

and... Drum roll please

*Drum Roll*

On another note... Chris and I are looking at a couple of HOMES for under $100,000. Yes that's right we might be trying to BUY something instead of RENTING. This thought scares the SHIT out of me. Are we ready to buy a home? Can we really afford this? It scares me. I guess we will look.

sad and frustrated

2009-06-19T11:51:00.002-04:00

Chris is feeling burned out. It makes me really sad to see him this upset and frustrated. He works so hard and he feels like he isn't getting anywhere. I just feel so helpless. I feel so selfish for wanting him to get a teaching job. I know he wants to perform and teach privately, it just isn't gonna work right now. one needs to pursue their dream when they can afford to do so. I don't think it is worth it when we are barely making ends meet. Its the economy, its the timing, its the location. It doesn't help that I am still in school. I would love to put school on hold to be able to fully support him in what he wants to do. We still live in his moms house because we cannot yet afford to be out on our own. *sigh* I just don't know.

On a not so sad note- we are going to Tiki Port w/ some friends from work tonight. I like getting together with the people I work with outside of work. They are so much fun. Tomorrow I am getting my new ink. Totally excited!! I have been waiting to get my 2nd tattoo since... well,,, since I got my first one!

hilarious

2009-06-18T15:31:00.001-04:00

thankyou to my friend kayla for sending me this!

Girls night

2009-06-14T21:55:00.003-04:00

I had such a good weekend! I know I said that in my last post but It really was an awesome weekend. Last night I went to my friend Jessica's house and it was just her and I for a while and we just talked. Talked about anything and everything. I really feel like I have have made a REAL friend out here on Cape. It is a real comfort to have a good friend out here. I don't feel so alone out here anymore. Her friends also came over last night and they were awesome! It was a really cool group of girls and it was fun. I hope we can all get together for a girls night again sometime soon.

Something serious to talk about- Per management we are not allowed food and drink on the front end. The new front end manager even made us sing something about it! I can totally understand food. No one wants to go through a cashiers line who is munching on potator chips while scanning their groceries. But Drinks?! I get dehydrated easily and I have a bottle of water with me ALL the time. I'm not going to go to the Dr.'s to get a note for this. I just don't see the harm that having a bottle of water does. If it spills, it doens't make a mess, doesn't make things sticky. I just don't know. Should I run to the bubbler (water fountain for you non- New England folk) every five minutes? Probably not. Even our Stockers can't have water on the floor. I mean. They are physically moving HEAVY things and they sweat. All they nneed if one person to drop of dehydration this summer and they will be singing a different tune.

good weekend

2009-06-13T13:25:00.003-04:00

What an awesome weekend I have had so far hehe. Thursday I went to go see Star Trek with Chris and my friend Jess and her boy. I was an AWESOME movie. I hope they make more because they did a fantastic job with it!! I might have to get it on NetFlix so I can watch it again! Last night after work I went to the local Chinese food place with some of my work comrades. We got 2 appetizer platters and the legal ones got a drink and we just sat and BS'ed. It was nice. I love the people I work with but we don't get to go out often because.. well... we are all working hehe. Tonight I was invited to my friend Jess's house for some cocktails and entertainment. It is nice to actually have a social life out here on the Cape. I still don't have many friends out here, and in my free time I usually just sit at home and blog or surf the net so it is nice to actually go out for once. I don't know why I haven't really gotton close to anyone out here. Maybe it is because I focus too much on work and school. Maybe I just don't remember how to actually make friends since it has been so long since I have had to. I think I am FINALLY getting comfortable here on the Cape, it is actually starting to feel like home. All I need now is a big floppy hat and I will actually fit in with all the Cape Cod ladies hehe.

Friday 5 a little early

2009-06-11T21:49:00.003-04:00

I saw these posted tonight and decided to do them becasue I have nothing else to do.

What’s something you will not eat unless you also have ketchup? Hot dogs and hamburgers
What’s something you will not drink unless it is served on ice cubes? nothing I hate ice
What’s something you will not eat unless it is served between slices of bread? jelly.. preferably w/ peanutbutter. or mayo.. I hate mayo on anything but a turkey or chicken sandwich
What’s something you will not drink unless you have a straw? milk shake
What’s something else you will not eat except under very specific circumstances? carrots.. they have to be in a stir fry or in a salad where they get covered in something.

in other news- I saw Star Trek and it was FANTABULOUS!!! I loved the original Kirk and captain Picard and This movie blew my mind it was sooo good! And it was funny too!

my uterus hurts.. oh the woes of being a woman.. off to be to relax w/ my love

Thanks Sunshinemeg!!

2009-06-10T21:16:00.002-04:00

Sunshinemeg has given me the Lovely award! Thanks a bunch!! I have already been given it and all would I would have tagged have already been given it. I am glad people think I'm Lovely!!!

becoming a homemaker??

2009-06-10T09:53:00.002-04:00

I finally cleaned my room today! Since Chris and I moved into his moms house in February we haven't really organized our room and were just throwing things on the floor or anywhere else there was open space

Today... we end this vicious cycle of messy-ness!!

all the clothes are off the floor.. shoes are in their proper place and all old mail/ important paper work is off my dresser and somewhere that will be eventually sorted through and filed (in some manner). Our room in TINY so any kind of mess makes it look TERRIBLE. I need to be a better cleaner.. I despise it.. there is soo much I would rather do than clean but as part of my future wifely duties I should learn to enjoy it.However, Christopher n eed tos get better at it too! All the mail thai I moved.. guess whose it was.. and ill give you a hint! It wasn't mine!!! When we get out own place I would like to invest in organizational things so that even if we have a lot of junk around.. it wil be organized atleast!

oh.. and in the process of cleaning I found:

many socks that I have not been able to find
My watch that I thought was gone for ever!
camera charger
A book of stamps

see.. maybe I should do this more often!

The Cruel thing about college

2009-06-08T09:26:00.002-04:00

I don't understand why it is sooo important for 16 and 17 year olds to have to decide what they want to do for the rest of their life. Only a few of them ever stick with their original decision. I was taking to my cousin this morning who will be going into her 2 year of college and she is telling me that she doesn't know if she wants to stay with her major. Thats OK, how are you supposed to know what it is that you want to do before you have even tried it. College costs sooo much money and these kids are almost jumping blindly into something. Granted you pretty much know what you like and dont like but still, you may end up hating what you loved and loving what you hated! And besides... Is it truly realistic to do ONE things for your WHOLE life??? not really. most people have a couple of different careers in their life time.

Take me for instance-In highschool there were a lof of different things that I wanted to do.. some had to do w/ computres, some had to do with animals and then suddenly I decided on music. I was good at it. Hell I was so good at it that I auditioned and was accepted at URI even though I had only been playing Horn for a year and a half. Then I started DOING it.. Not my favorite thing. I loved to play... I didnt love all that other stuff that goes w/ Music education.. like the TEACHING part hehe. So I transfered out and moved to Cape Cod.. and you wanna know what I picked- NURSING... the total other end of the spectrum. Why? I don't really know. Something about caring for people really appealed to me and I really enjoy learning about the human body. and even still I am not TOTALLY confident with the choice I made. I have started blogging and I kind of enjoy working on the computer but I dont know if I could do this forever but it would be awesome to work for google! I really Enjoy working for Shaw's Supermarket... I could see myself as a front end manager. I really like working w/ people. Who knows I will figure it out at some point.. Maybe I am already doing it or maybe I will find it.

He is way to good to me

2009-06-06T18:20:00.001-04:00

But I deserve it!!

Thats right everyone!!!

I HAVE A BLACKBERRY STORM!!!

He Loves me I think!

tattoo so Sara Can see it

2009-06-05T09:41:00.002-04:00

This is what I decided on for my tattoo.. only it will be on my foot, not my back.. I am still debating doing it in Brown ink so it REALLY looks like Henna. It probably wont be EXACTLY this but it will be close

This image really is henna
Thank you Henna Me for the picture!

Happy Friday!

2009-06-05T09:22:00.003-04:00

It is always exciting when Friday rolls around. That means the weekend is here! Unfortunately, I don't really get a weekend anymore. I am pretty much always working or i have a concert or 2 on the weekend which means a lot of driving!

this weekend-

I have to work 11-7 today and then IMMEDIATELY after work I have to drive 1.5 hours to my parents house in RI (not to mention I drove to RI Yesterday for rehearsal (there goes all my money this week on gas))
Tomorrow I have a concert at Faneuil Hall in Boston tomorrow. We are taking a coach bus though so I don't have to worry about driving, parking, traffic, or getting lost (which w/ my superb sense of direction will most certainly happen). Then I will drive home and relax for the remainder of the day
Sunday, I have to work in the morning and then I have to drive to Thompson, CT for yet ANOTHER concert and that is about a 2 hour drive from Cape Cod.

so.... Pretty much, I am in the car/bus, working, or playing a concert all weekend.. no relaxation for Haley. I am going to try to take pictures this weekend. I have this really nice new camera that Christopher bought me the night we got engaged (I refer to it as my "engagement camera") that I don't use as much as I should and I want to try to be better at taking more pictures.

AND NOW........ FOR THE FRIDAY 5!!

What bugs truly freak you out? I really don't like ticks or yucky flies. Ticks especially since they are everywhere here on the Cape.
Which Bugs Bunny cartoon do you remember most fondly? Anything the has the roadrunner in it, or has Elmer Fudd..I miss those days of violent cartoons w/ real cartoon characters
What bugs you most about your life online? I want to be part of all these different "Communities" but I'm not.. I don't know though.. maybe nothing really bugs me about my life online...
Which of your favorite websites seems often to be especially buggy?yahoo mail.. thats why I want to switch to g-mail... pluss Google is way cooler!
When were you last too sick to get out of bed?*cough cough* ooo right now.. it looks like I really should go back to sleep... *cough cough*

Happy Friday Everyone!

major over haul

2009-06-04T13:14:00.003-04:00

Again... I think the only think I will continue to change would be the colors I finally found a really neat layout. Miss Sara at Little Rhody Girl mentioned the place she got her new layout and I had to have one. I really like the layout, just maybe not the colors just yet. Its a work in progress.

Happy June

2009-06-02T09:05:00.002-04:00

I really can't believe that it is already the beginning of June. Time has gone by so fast, I feel like Christmas was like a week ago hehe. I think that the warm weather has finally began to stick around as well. Why is it that time is moving so fast? Is it because I am getting older and everything just seems to speed by now? is it because I am continuously busy and don't have time to sit around and do nothing? I just don't know but it is weird.

ok well I'm gonna go for a nice walk and then shower and hang around before I have to go to work.
has a splendid day everyone!

goode day and babies eating corn on the cob

2009-05-31T19:20:00.006-04:00

I had such a good day today. I had to work 7am-2pm which means I had most of the day off today. so what did I do... The family went swimming (me, chris, nephew,niece and MIL). The pool was really nice and My 4 year old nephew has been taking swimming lessons and he really enjoys being in the water. My 14 month old niece LOVED the water. she had never been in the pool before and she seemed to thoroughly enjoy it. I even taught her how to splash.. bad Auntie Haley (I teach her all the bad things to do like blow raspberries hehe) we then had a delicious dinner all together and my niece ate like a piggy and she ate all the corn off the cob! it was the cutest thing in the world!

my nephew and I in the car

My niece eating corn off the cob.. this was her first time ever!

friday 5

2009-05-29T22:41:00.002-04:00

In the meantime, here's the Friday 5...

1. What is the longest you’ve gone between haircuts?
ATLEAST 6 months

2. What is the shortest hour of the day?
the hour that my snooze button is being pushed in the morning

3. What is the longest line you’ve ever stood in?
the graduation line in highschool. it was about 400 people long and i was close to the end

4. Who’s your shortest adult friend?
my friend Bri, she is about 4'11

5. Who among your current friends have you known the longest?
my dearest friend kayla. it has been 16 years of my 21 year life

Have a fantabulous weekend!

3 pounds

2009-05-28T12:00:00.002-04:00

i gained 3 pounds.. I'm really disappointed in myself. I was going to good. I know your weight can fluctuate and 3 pounds isn't TERRIBLE but I really wanted it to keep going DOWN not UP.

new goal: 5 pounds by the end of June

today: jogged/walked 2 miles

face lift

2009-05-27T12:20:00.002-04:00

I thought my blog needed a face lift.. I was getting kind of bored with the plain background. tell me what you think!

very upset

2009-05-27T09:32:00.002-04:00

Yesterday, California supreme court has ruled to uphold proposition 8. If you do not know, proposition 8 puts a ban on all gay marriage in the state of California. This also means that all gay marriages have been annulled that happened prior to this legislation. This is a very sad day. these people who voted for proposition 8 must be very close minded people to think a man and a man or a woman and woman should not be given the same rights and be able to marry just like a man and a woman should. My question is why? Why should these people not be afforded the same rights as everyone else (isn't that what the constitution says, all men are created equal?) why does it effect YOUR life if 2 gay men want to get married? your life does not change any, you can go on just like it wan any other day, Hell you probably wouldn't even notice the difference. why is your religous beliefs deciding this? yes "Marriage" as a term is a religous term, however it is a LEGAL document there fore it is the states jurisdiction, is it not? if the church does not agree with it, they don't have to perform the marriages and the couple can go elsewhere, but now they can go nowhere. It is called tolerance people. you may not agree with it, you may not like it but this is life and there are gay people in the world and you sometimes you just have to fucking get over it. my fiance always says (in his devils advocate tone of voice) why make an exception for a small percentage of people? I ask why go to great lenghts to ruin such a small group of people lives? they are all people! and lets step away from a social point of view and look at economics for a second. California is in debt, they didnt even give anyone tax returns, they just kept the money. Marriage lisences= money, weddings =money, california lost a WHOLE lot of money on this one.

come on America. I though this was the home of the brave and the land of the FREE. This legislation shows me a bunch of cowards afraid to face reality and it takes away freedoms of thousands of people. I thiought this was 2009 not 1960 and i thought we were moving in a forward direction. i guess not!

"If you prick us, do we not bleed?
if you tickle us, do we not laugh? if you poison
us, do we not die? and if you wrong us, shall we not
revenge? If we are like you in the rest, we will
resemble you in that."
- the Merchant of Venic

exercise

2009-05-26T10:22:00.002-04:00

I need to start exercising again! I have been really lazy this last week or so and I really need to get back into it. Maybe ill go for a run tonight or I will start again tomorrow morning, I should start keeping track of the days that I get out there and do something. Christopher and I did go for a nice long walk yesterday. We walked about 2 miles and it was very nice, but I am not sure that walking is enough to get me into shape. It doesn't help that I haven't been eating really well lately. I was so proud of myself because I have lost 10 pounds since Christmas and I have never really lost weight before.

I guess I have fallen off the bandwagon a bit.... I am going to start climbing back on

friday 5 a little late

2009-05-23T22:58:00.002-04:00

Its the Friday 5.. only on a Saturday night

What kind of out-of-school lessons did you take as a kid? I took French Horn lessons, Dance lessons, Acting lessons
What valuable lesson did you learn this past week? That my sister is now of legal adult age and I should really think of her that way and not as a child anymore.. also that it takes a lot to say no to someone but it gets easier with time
Who in your life really needs to be taught a lesson? My sister for sure
What kinds of lessons would you love to have a private teacher for right now? French horn again. I really miss taking lessons
What steps have you taken to lessen the impact of these rough economic times? work a little harder, spend a little less and enjoy life just as much if not more

I have the best finace ever!

2009-05-23T22:40:00.002-04:00

He is still at work at Shaw's and I just sent him a text requesting the he procure me a bag of peanut butter M&M's. he sends me a text back saying the he will. That text is then followed by another one saying "you are so f'ing lucky, last one" this means that he has the LAST bag of peanut butter M&M's in the store and it bringing them home for ME. I knew I was marrying this wonderful man for a reason. <3

work was good tonight. It was not as busy as last night but it was still steady. I did really well tonight and I did not need a lot of help. I was really trying to be self sufficient so that everyone though that i was capable of the job and I didn't seem like a helpless person to my supervisors and the customers. There are still some things that I don't know how to do, like the more complicates lottery things, but for the most part I can do it all. I was even out of there on time tonight.

I was supposed to work tomorrow but I gave my shift away to my friend Andrew who needed the hours more that I did. So that mean I am getting a day (well kind of.. iIhave a concert in Blackstone MA tomorrow.. so if you are in the area I play french horn in American Band and it is a free concert so come see us!) off and I think I will wake up early and go to church with Christopher tomorrow. Iell we don't really go to church.... he sings at church and is paid for it so I like to go to listen to him sing. I am not really a believer so I don't do any of the praying (I usually sit in the back so as to not draw a lot of attnetion to my self.. I am a pro I have been to many a church service to just "listen" at this point) However, if there happens to be a good preist, rector, preacher, what have you, I do enjoy the sermon and I like to think of it more as a life lesson that a teaching of god.

I thought

2009-05-21T09:46:00.004-04:00

That when I was done with school I would be so happy because I would have free time..

I'm Bored

I have nothing to do to fill my time that is not either working or sleeping hehe. I want to start reading but I don't know what I should read. any suggestions of ANYTHING are totally welcome. I just spend a lot of time at home and honestly that sucks. And of course Chris works during the day so he isn't around to entertain me or anything.

in other news

I got a B+ in Microbiology! That was a pretty flippin awesome bit of news. I thought I was definitely gonna bomb the final but I got a 136/150 which equals about a 90%. Very exciting
I have a new job at work. I am now in the customer service desk. It is a lot of fun. I like helping people plus it is something new to do so I am not as bored as I was. Plus it pisses off the mean old cashier lady that I work with. so I kill 2 birds with one stone hehe

I guess that is it for now.
It is beautiful out so maybe I will go do something but I just dont know

Queen

2009-05-19T10:45:00.003-04:00

My blog buddy Tamela has given me this Queen-tastic award.. wow 2 awards already! I guess people really like me or something? hehe

so here are the rules:
1. List 7 things that make me awe-summm.
2. Pass the award onto 7 bloggers that I love.
3. Tag those bloggers to let them know they are now Queens too (and link back to the Queen who tagged you).

7 things that make me awe-summm...

I play the French Horn and I am quite good at it. I went to URI for 2 years for music education but I decided that teaching was not for me.
I live on Cape Cod... I don't like it that much but it is nice for the most part.. Yes people do live here all year long
my favorite type of food is Chinese but I only eat it once in a while because it is fattening
pink is my favorite color ever... I will have hot pink shoes at my wedding
I am getting married to the most amazing man in the whole world ever. I can not even put into words how special and important he is to me.
We have a kitty and his name is Butterscotch... we call him Scotch for short
I may be little (5'1") but I can hold my liquor. and I can probably beat any of you at beer pong (only I play w/ rum and coke)

the lovely ladies that I choose are

everyone else I would have nominate has already been nominated

2009-05-14T17:24:00.002-04:00

The lovely Boredom's Bounty gave me the Lovely Blog award today! Its my first ever award hehe so thanks a bunch!

And now, on to the rules:

1. Add the logo to your blog;

2. Link to the person from whom you received this award;

3. Nominate 7 or more blogs; and

4. Leave a message on their blog, letting them know they are One Lovely Blog!

who to nominate.. I love so many different blogs so here goes

1. Tamela over at A Brunette Making it One Day at a Time
2. Christine at a Journy through Nursing School and Beyond

3. My friend Sara at Little Rhody Girl
4. Prisca at N is for Nurse
5. Pattie and Yet at Yes No Maybe
6. AD at A Day In The Life of an Ambulance Driver

Thanks for all being so lavely and some of my favorites to read!

2009-05-14T09:14:00.002-04:00

Today was my psychology final and it was easy as pie. I was done is less that half an hour. yesterday was my Anatomy final and that also went well. Tonight my friend Jessica is coming over so we can study for micro. Shes gonna bring pizza.. mmm the best study food ever hehe. I like Jess shes cool and I hope we can really become friends because I still haven't made any real friend out here yet. I mean I love the people I work with they are awesome but we never hang out because... well.. we all work hehe. I do get kinda loely out here though because I don't really do anything except work and school, so friends would be good.

Boy I cannot wait till I can stop writing about school.. tomorrow at 530 cannot come soon enough hehe.

in other news. Christopher is putting the treadmill together... yay I can have a treadmill to run on and not have to pay 30 dollare a month to use it hehe. I hope it works. Its old and had been sitting around for a while.

ok well off to relax and maybe clean for the afternoon

enjoy!

then end is nearing

2009-05-11T22:14:00.001-04:00

5 more days and this semester is DONE. I am sooo happy about this you have no idea!

off to study!

new tattoo

2009-05-07T18:05:00.004-04:00

I have a hankering for a new tattoo. Im thinking about some nice plain scroll work on my foot like this :

Something to that effect anyhow

I think maybe my friend Amenda (yes that is the correct spelling) from work and I will go get a new tattoo together this summer. I love tattoos and I have wanted to get my second one for a while now!

I do have one tattoo already . I got it on my 18th birthday and I LOVE it. It is a full color lilly on my hip

(not the skinniest girl in the world so don't mind the pudge)

I love it because it looks like water colors like someone just painted it on. <3

boring

2009-05-06T13:31:00.004-04:00

Sorry I haven't had much to say lately everyone. School and work has kind of consumed my life right now.. By the end of next week I will be done with school and will finally get to do some relaxing and some soul searching. I need to find something that brings me stress relief. If I am going to become a nurse I need to figure out how to deal with stress better. I want to be a nurse and I DO NOT want my inability to cope to interfere with that one little bit. I want to lose 6 more pounds. I am down to 161.. 160 on a good day.. I would really like to get back to my precollege weight of 155.. even less would be fantastic and I think this summer is the perfect time to achieve this goal. I need to get over my fear of needles so to remedy that I think I am going to give blood this summer. I have never given blood and I do not even know my blood type. I also want to read some books this summer and suggestions would be very welcome. I do not read too much during the school year so I would love to read a couple of books over the summer (im sure one of them will be a self help stress book hehe). i also think I am going to try and take a lot of pictures this summer.. Bring my camera EVERYWHERE!

oh.. I guess there is a lot I want to do this summer and I am going to make sure I take the time to do it. well.. off to my microbiology exam.. have a good day everyone!

It is official!

2009-05-01T13:25:00.001-04:00

We have a date!

drum roll please......

June 18th, 2011!

this is a huge weight off my shoulders and now we can relax and enjoy each other for a while!

2 weeks

2009-04-27T22:17:00.002-04:00

left of class, and boy do I feel ready.. but at the same time, not so ready hehe. I still have a crap ton of work left to do and a bunch of tests. I need a break. I need to de-stress and relax.

on another note- I went shopping yesterday and bout some new summer clothes! I love shopping. I still need to replace a pair of jeans and but a jean skirt but other than that I am set.

I am so tired but I need to study and I am waiting for Chris to come home from work before I go to bed. I love him so much.. I get all warm and fuzzy when I think about him and the fact that we are getting MARRIED in 2 years... 25 months to be exact.. that time needs to come FASTER! I want to be Mrs. Tufts alreast!

ok more studying everyone
night
peace and love

2009-04-26T08:23:00.000-04:00

you have to watch these! my FAVORITE is the singer family its sooo cute I cried!

friday 5

2009-04-24T13:12:00.002-04:00

So I figure what is better to do on this BEAUTIFUL sunny/ semi-warm day than answer the friday 5

What’s the most annoying sound in the world? I REALLY hate chalkboard scratching more than anything in the world
Which of other people’s mannerisms do you find very annoying? My fiance puts things in his mouth while he is talking to people, like his sweatshirt strings and things like that.. that drives me nuts.
What do you do that really annoys others? I probably talk to much
In what way has your own behavior recently caused you annoyance? I get way too stressed and worked up about things, it drives me nuts bc I can never relax
Who’s the most annoying person you know? I have a few customers at my job that drive me a little crazy